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"My heart is overflowing with a good theme; I recite my compositions concerning the King; My tongue is the pen of a ready writer." Psalms 45:1
|Posted on June 8, 2014 at 12:45 AM||comments (0)|
Everyday is a challenge. I who proclaim, "I LOVE A GOOD CHALLENGE!".... I realize that a lot of times, my words are meaningless, BUT God says:
"For the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you ought to say." Luke 12:12
So I sit here with a revelation in my head. Words that I have to write BUT my thoughts keep screaming at me:
"Your heart is in the right place BUT who are YOU to talk about God's love? God loves you BUT look at what YOU do! Why should anyone want to hear what YOU have to say? Your actions do not prove your love! I know you want to write these nonsensical words BUT no one cares to hear the words of a hypocrite, best to leave it all alone and learn how to take baby steps!"
There you have it, my thoughts in writing! What do you see?
Let me tell you what I see:
Ok, let me clarify something here. I am sharing this in case YOU (my reader) can relate to this. This is NOT Truth! Those thoughts are NOT from God. Had I acted upon those thoughts, you would not be reading this blog! (Can I get an Amen for Rebuking the devil and letting God turn something ugly into something beautiful?)
Basically, all I wanted this blog to say today is: Take off the but!
He (God) showed me how I have allowed "but" to erase His truths in my life. Leading me to believe that I didn't really know His word or that I couldn't do His word! The truth is, His word is in my heart and all I need to do is put it into action in my life! Take on the challenge of using "but" the correct way and see what happens!
Have you ever heard that but negates anything you have said prior to saying but? I have been taught to stop saying "But"..
Melinda: I know I was wrong BUT he hurt me!
Melinda: I know I have to go to work BUT I don't feel good!
Melinda: Yes, I want to pray in the morning/evening BUT I have no time!
Melinda: I'm sorry for what I said too BUT next time just don't talk to me like that!
Melinda: I love you BUT this just isn't working!
Do you see it? Think about how you would feel if I said that to you? Don't you see how it doesn't matter what is being said before "BUT"! A person hearing those words, will FOCUS on the words AFTER "BUT"
So I started learning how to take off my "but"! (smiling) And I'm getting pretty good at it too! I have added "yet still" or "and" in place of "but"!
Now today, He shared something new to me! He said, "Be creative and rearrange your words!"
Melinda: He hurt me, but I was wrong. - Please forgive me!
Melinda: I don't feel good but I have to go to work. - Father thank You for Your healing!
Melinda: I have no time but I want to pray in the morning/evening. - I can do ALL things through Christ....
Melinda: Next time just don't talk to me like that, but I AM sorry for what I said too. - I forgive you!
Melinda: This isn't working but I love you. - Pray blessings over those who hurt you.
Do you feel the power, the positivity, the love, the devotion, the desire, the Spirit of God stirring inside of you? See the difference when you change your "but"? God's word gives us LIFE and He gives us the weapons to stand up and honor His word!
When you rearrange how you speak and line it up with God's word, you will bless others with His love. You will be humbled to His likeness. You become a fruit instead of poison!
Yes, baby steps! Learn how to stop saying "but"! Let Him teach you how to be creative in hearing His words in your heart and keeping them safe!
"Then he taught me, and he said to me, "Take hold of my words with all your heart; keep my commands, and you will live.""
Let this sink in. Think and meditate on what I am telling you here.
After thinking for moment of all that I have written, God showed me things that I can do to teach my children. When I rearranged my words, I felt a desire to succeed, to build, to encourage, to enable, to love, to honor.....
Choose your words wisely!
"So I sit here with a revelation in my head. Words that I have to write BUT my thoughts keep screaming at me."
My thoughts keep screaming at me but I sit here with a revelation in my head. Words that I have to write!
In Jesus Name I pray for the Mighty word of God to bless ALL who love Him and cherish His words. May Your words, Father, continue to peel off the old (wo)man and bring out the New Beloved Creation that mirrors You. Giving us strength and courage to seek out those wanting to be our enemies with Love so that they may have an opportunity to see You through us!
In Jesus's Name, Amen!
|Posted on January 15, 2013 at 6:30 PM||comments (0)|
This past weekend, I took a 12 hour drive to Sacramento, CA from Scottsdale, AZ to support a friend whose 21 year old son has gone on to be with the Lord. On this road trip, I recall turning down the volume on the GPS so I can listen to my music and/or to be on the phone. (I didn’t need to hear the computer’s voice because I can see the map and directional arrows on the screen).
“My sheep listen to my voice. I know them and they follow me.” John 10:27
As I am sitting here thinking about this roller coaster ride that I travel on in so many important areas of my life, I realize that I have turned off God’s voice and am trying to follow the pictures! I keep turning off the road at a bunch of dead end streets!
Some of the Good News is:
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
“Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and [that] the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?” 1 Corinthians 3:16
“Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and today, and forever.” Hebrews 13:8
It is never too late to turn around and get back on track with God’s plan for us. Start a small goal like: taking a few minutes each morning to pray, is a good start to making that U-Turn. Ending each night in prayer for just a moment to thank Him for our day is helpful.
Before things get so out of control, we need to turn the GPS voice system back on high and stop wasting time on dead end roads.
|Posted on December 6, 2012 at 12:40 AM||comments (0)|
"Love one another with brotherly affection. Out do one another in showing honor" Romans 12:10
My heart is not the only heart that belongs to Him! Today I want to lift someone up in prayer and love and honor, with respect and encouragement to keep on keeping on!
Pastor Ace Johnson and I have been friends for quite some time now. Through our mutual interest in spreading the Good News and winning people to Christ, a friendship was born. In the beginning of our friendship, I humorously remember, treating Pastor like a god. I just knew he knew everything. I went to him with all my questions and concerns and fears. And similarily, I avoided him when I was doing bad, just like I do with God. Amazingly, when I did finally admit to Pastor the messes I've created in my life, he didn't shun me or yell at me or belittle me. He loved me almost like God continues to love me through it all.
Because of Pastor Ace's love for God and his trust in God and his faith in God, I have learned so much. I am learning God's word by reading it and by seeing it in action. Because Ace has never turned his back on me, I have been able to realize that he is not perfect but he is REAL. He is faithful, kind, loving, knowledgeable, resourceful and a man of honor. God placed us together as friends, associates, mentors to others and commonly placed us in a position to fight the war against the devil.
I have been elevated to a new understanding of my Father, though. Instead of going to Pastor Ace with my questions now, I have grown to understand that I need to go straight to God. I need to trust that God speaks to me in my language and He is always there for me. He will put people in my path to help me and encourage me. And also, I will be doing the same for others.
"Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm". Proverbs 13:20
In this season, where I am learning the true meaning of Christmas and beginning to ask God for revelation in burning old traditions and replacing them with opportunites for greater things in Him, I am thankful to God for my friendship with Pastor Ace and his wife, Kristin!
"Do not be deceived: “Bad company ruins good morals.”" 1 Corinthians 15:33
I am currently studying God's word in the area of being Greater, as God has called me to be in Him. Learning to recognize and make notice of God's blessings in my life. What a perfect time to reflect on what I do have. At one point in my life, Pastor Ace was bigger than God to me because of his flesh and because of my immaturity. However, because of his obedience, Pastor Ace has helped me to recognize God in a MUCH bigger way.
On this journey of "My Heart Belongs To You Lord - Day #52", I stop to appreciate the tools God provides me, in my time of need. And I now believe that: 1. I am being made a tool of Christ as well. 2. I am a special part of the body of Christ. In Pastor Ace's shoes, I probably would have pushed me away back in the days. but reason #3. Thank God for His grace and mercy.
Wherever you are in your walk today, take a moment to lift up your mentors in prayer and appreciation. The season of giving is upon us each and everyday!
“This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you." John 15:12-15
Father, I thank You for all that You are doing in me and through me. I thank You for spiritual growth and discernment. I thank You for the path of doing great things as Jeus said I will do! (John 14:12). Father I lift up Pastor Ace and his family in prayer and love. I thank You for their friendship and their love and obedience to You. Lord I am praying over their finances, health, and Spiritual walk.
In Jesus' Name I pray, with all of my heart! Amen!
|Posted on November 8, 2012 at 6:40 AM||comments (0)|
"Strength and honor are her clothing; She shall rejoice in time to come." Proverbs 31:25
As I wake up to Day #25 - My Heart Belongs To You Lord, I realize that this walk is a very slow pace! Twenty-Five days ago I said, "God I AM YOURS! ALL OF ME!" The old me: I would think that by now I should be able to walk on water! There is a difference in who I was and who I am becoming. I have been in this place before. On fire for God! Ready to go to church everyday of the week to learn His word. Ready to TEACH people what God wants them to know! Yeah I've been there before. This is a different girl.
God has shown me a little about Forgiveness, Obedience, Sitting Still and Praying. Today, as I woke up to pray, I heard myself say, "Lord, I'm not the old me, I will not pray to be tested even though I feel strong in You in this area. I will pray for more strength in and from Your word!" I realized then that God has also been teaching me Patience and Love for Him.
At church, someone asked me, "How did you get to where you are now? How did you come to start realizing that Your Heart Belongs To Him?" And I started to tell her the "story" of which she quickly lost interest..... The real answer? The right answer? It's very simple:
I have been praying and praying and praying! It started out in my shower, and my car. While I was at work, and while I cooked. I started to pray in my bed at night and in the morning when I woke up. And then He said, "Make TIME for JUST ME". That's how I started waking .... trying to wake up at 4:00am. Well, it's not trying anymore! I WAKE UP AT 4AM JUST FOR HIM! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LORD!
This is the time I have that the children are asleep, the phone isn't ringing, there are no text messages going on. My time alone with Him. I never realized how important this time would be. I have gathered STRENGTH from Him at this hour. I have learned COURAGE in Him at this time. He has laughed with me and He has taken a serious tone as well. God is becoming my everything. I am learning about Him and how much He knows me through prayer.
What is prayer? It's communication with God! - listening and talking to Him. Why should we pray? It develops our relationship with God! Also, God told us to pray! Obedience is a natural by-product of discipleship.
"Keep alert and pray. Otherwise temptation will overpower you. For though the spirit is willing enough, the body is weak!" Matthew 26:41
"Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up." Luke 18:1
"And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints." Ephesians 6:18
At one point in my life, I knew that I didn't know how to pray. I didn't know what to pray for or who to pray for. I would also feel a little guilty because I would tell people, I'm praying for you and I really wasn't. But the Holy Spirit knows how to pray and can intercede for us. He will show us how to pray when allow Him to flow through us.
Prayer is how I have started to show my children that I'm serious about God. My children seeing me up at 5:30am already dressed and breakfast being cooked... They knew it had to be God! My youngest daughter walked in on me one day when I was praying in the bathtub and I said to her, "Sweetie, mommy is praying right now, please go to the living room with your brother and sister". My 3 y/o has told me on a number of occassions now while taking a bath, "I'm praying Mommy! Are you happy???" (she means, are you proud of me).
In prayer I have been receiving so much information. I have learned to be a little more patient. A lot more obedient. Stronger for sure!
That day at church, I wish I would have said the simple answer!
I am where I am right now because I pray!
**Proverbs 31:25 I opened my blog today with that verse because Strength and Honor comes from Him. Building a relationship with God comes through Prayer! I want to be a Proverbs 31 Woman and that verse jumped out at me when I was searching for the Praying Women in me.
|Posted on November 6, 2012 at 6:30 AM||comments (1)|
"The fear (respect) of the Lord is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate." Proverbs 8:13
At first I didn't see how this fell under pride, but what is pride? The type of pride I am speaking of is a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc. (dictionary.com). This type of pride takes our focus off of God and onto ourselves. This type of pride had me focused on me and not on Him. And I carried a burden which I was unwilling to let go of because I thought, "If I forgive myself, the person I have wronged will not think I was genuine. If people see me acting like I did nothing wrong... What would people think of me?"
This is at a time that I am learning that MY HEART BELONGS TO HIM! To God. Not to ANYONE ELSE! God said, "Forgive yourself!" And I was blatantly saying, "No Dad, I can't! What will THEY think?"
When I realized that I was focused on me, I gave in and asked God to forgive me for my disobedience and I praised HIm for His forgiveness and I allowed God to wrap His arms around me as I learned how to let go and let God.... When I forgave myself, I took my eyes off of others and put them on GOD!
"Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you." Proverbs 4:25
The only way to forgive yourself is to take your eyes off of you and put them on Him. It will allow you to MOVE FORWARD!
Be Blessed, Stay Blessed and Be a Blessing!
|Posted on November 5, 2012 at 12:05 AM||comments (0)|
Today I woke up at 7am. I was three hours late for my date with my Father. It didn't even bother me at first. I sat in my bed for a moment and thought, "Wow, I woke up early enough to take my time taking a shower and getting the kids up for the 9:30am service." (Which by the way, is a 9:00am service. Yes I was late to church!).
As I sat there, conviction started tugging at my heart. Today is Day #21 of My Heart Belongs To You Lord. A friend of mine once told me it actually takes 21 days to create a habit, not 30 days like I had thought. I should have been able to wake up this morning at 4am as if nothing. It should have been part of my daily routine by now. So I got on my knees and I prayed.
I prayed for God to forgive me for my disobedience. 21 days ago I went to God and told Him that I realized that my heart was no longer mine to mistreat and do harm to. I realized that my heart belonged to Him. 21 days ago I asked God to help me have a relationship with Him and to learn how to be more like Him so that I may live the life I deeply desire to live. He answered my prayers and simply told me to do two things. He told me to make time for Him and to Pray. Waking up at 4am was to teach me Time Management since I used the excuse that I had no time in the day. Prayer is to help me build a relationship with Him so that He could teach me, guide me, heal me, energize me, love on me, and so many other things that happen in my time of prayer. He answered my prayer and I ignored Him.
Two things that came to mind: 1. Don't you hate it when your friends ask you for advice and then when you give them some REALLY GOOD SOLID advice they give you that fake smile and a look that says, "Easy for you to say!" Later on they come back wishing they had followed your advice even though you don't follow your own advice! 2. If you have a child you may understand this one: A baby is getting in to trouble and you can see they know they are doing something wrong, so they try to be "cute". It melts your heart and you just have to laugh! You almost forget why you were correcting them.
My cuteness is over with and God is serious again. At first I laughed it off as to me waking up at 4am and going back to bed and so on and so forth. God isn't laughing. I can feel it in my heart that I have steered away from Him again. So this morning I prayed for God to give me His courage and His strength to get focused again and to be obedient to His word and His direction for my life! I asked Him for forgiveness and I believed in Him for His love that never fails me. I trust that He is always with me and will never forsake me. I just need to come back to His open arms! In the name of Jesus, I love my Father!
Today at church I was given some awesome scriptures:
"No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you or forsake you." Joshua 1:5b
"Be strong and courageous, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them. 7 Only be strong and very courageous, being careful to do according to all the law that Moses my servant commanded you. Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go" Joshua 1:6-7
"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil." Ephesians 6:10-11
"But he said, Yea rather, blessed are they that hear the word of God, and keep it." Luke 11:28
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path." Psalm 119:105
"This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success." Joshua 1:8
"Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee." Psalm 119:11 (His final answer)
Maybe you don't understand the significance of what I have shared today. The importance of what I have learned is within my prayers at 7am in the morning in my home on my knees before the Lord and the scriptures that my Pastor gave me during our 10:15 service. God knows what I'm going to do before I do it. He is ready with open arms for when I'm ready to turn around and come to Him. Yes, my Dad was laughing with me those first couple of days when I was pouting about having to wake up at 4am. He is a loving father and His love is never ending. However, the cuteness will only get me so far.
"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1 If you continue to hope for the answer and put to action what He tells you to do, you are showing true Faith!
Day #21 I'm past the cute stage!
|Posted on November 1, 2012 at 2:30 PM||comments (0)|
In the last week, a few things have kind of nagged on my thoughts a bit. 1. I noticed that a local church was celebrating their Annual Harvest Festival on 10/26th instead of on Halloween. 2. This is our first year at Impact Chruch so I wasn't aware of what they do on Halloween, but it surprised me when I was told that the youth group, who holds their meetings on Wednesdays, were going to keep to their schedule. Nothing was going to be done for the younger kids, it was business as usual. Ok. Not an issue. We'll just go to our old church. 3. Love Life Church no longer celebrates Hallelujah Night on Halloween. They did a Harvest Festival the Sunday before.
Ok, now I'm seeing a trend, something is going on. I didn't get the memo. "Fine!", I thought. My older children will take my youngest child trick or treating and I will get some work done around the house. But "something" kept tugging at me. What wasn't I understanding? So I took a break and decided to look up some info about Halloween. I read all about how Halloween was harmless and that the parents and children of our time are just celebrating a time of fun and free candy. I also noticed an update that Pastor Ace posted on Facebook about Halloween.
Lightbulb Moment! It is not a sin to go trick or treating. Nothing in the bible tells us to refrain from going door to door to collect candy from neighbors we do not know. (In a world where where it is very normal to not know any of your neighbors. It is commonly heard that we do not let our children help out the neighbors because: "we don't know them"!) Nothing in the bible tells us that we are displeasing God when we put on a costume just for the fun of it. The motive, and God knows our hearts, in Halloween is just fun in most cases.
However, the bible does say:
"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2
"Do all things without grumbling or disputing." Philippians 2:14
"We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ " 2Corinthians 10:5
"And whatever you do, whether by speech or action, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him". Colossians 3:17
Celebrating Halloween is a personal choice as is everything in our life. (It's called Free Will) As Christians we are taught to go to Christ and consult with Him in all that we do and let Him lead our path. Jesus died to rid us of our sins and give us an opportunity to have a relationship with God. A God who wants us to experience TRUE happiness, joy, love, peace and FUN! So why not consult with God as to whether you should personally celebrate Halloween or not prior to getting upset about what others are doing or not doing?
I asked Him. He told me 18 days ago to teach my children that I am learning to be obedient in all areas of my life. MY GOD IS AWESOME! My son threw a tantrum! A 14 year old football player throwing a tantrum over Halloween looks like a human posessed by the devil! His face turned dark and evil! His nose flared as his lips curled into a snarl.... OUT WITH YOU SATAN!
LOL I survived and at the end of the day, the children and I spent quality time together.
This year we didn't have time to prepare but the kids and I will surely add fun prior to Halloween by preparing for that day. We are now looking forward to Halloween for a good purpose that gives God glory. Yesterday, I ran out to the Family Christian store and grabbed some little "pass on" cards that had cute little pictures and a bible verse on them. (15 cents each). I purchased some candy that had scriptures on the wrapper and I purchased two of a children book that was on sale. (P is for Pumpkin). They had a tray on sale for 1.24 so I bought that and we put the candy, pass on cards and two books on that tray to prepare to shine a light on the cute little trick or treaters coming to our home. My 3 y/o dressed up as a Princess and was ready to hand out candy. (I also did buy candy for the kids to have and they winded up with the left over candy for the trick or treaters too!)
While we waited for people to knock on our doors, I read The Pumpkin Gospel and A Pumpkin Prayer to Rosie. The children and I played a game together and watched a movie. We chatted about what we can do next year and why we are no longer celebrating Halloween. By the end of the night we all had a wonderful time together as a family and I believe we have started a new tradition that we will pass on to future generations.
I wasn't tricked into doing this either. God didn't show me the rewards if I listened to Him. I didn't even realize that my son was so consumed with Halloween candy that he wouldn't give it up for God if asked to do so. The treat was better than I could have hoped for, better than I could have imagined. I spent a wonderful evening with my 3 children.
If you are wondering for yourself, whether or not you should be trick or treating, I would suggest having a talk with Dad. Let Him show you your heart and your motives.
"And if it seems evil to you to serve the Lord, choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” - Joshua 24:15.
|Posted on October 25, 2012 at 1:05 PM||comments (1)|
As I started on this journey of working on my relationship with the Lord, I have learned to stand on a few things that He gave me such as: Faith, Courage, Strength, Truth and Love. Through this walk, I have laughed, cried, forgiven, prayed, praised and so much more. Building a relationship with God has been scary and funny, all at the same time, as well as rewarding and comforting. Through prayer I have learned to hear His voice. May your walk with God be the most exciting thing to take place in your life, because this kind of high can’t be purchased at any price, it’s been paid for at the cross… Melinda
First, I would like to remind you that this is a blog about MY walk with God. I have been instructed to share so that you may feel encouraged and strengthened to find the will to pursue God for yourself. What He is sharing with me has a lot to do with where I was when I lifted my hands to Him and where I come from; How I receive and who I was before the fact of who I am becoming. God is doing wonderful things in me and I’m working hard to keep my focus on Him. Day #11 is just the beginning, I look forward to day #.... oh wait…. He said,
“Melinda, focus on today!”
I have been working on Time Management for the last 7 or 8 days now. I am learning that there are MANY areas that fall under time management.
- Being on Time
- Making Time
- Arranging Time
- Learning to say No
- When to say Yes
- How to be a good mother
I started to learn this when I started to research the characteristics of a Godly Woman. My study guide, of course has been the book of Proverbs in Chapter 31. After I had learned a little something about forgiveness, God placed in my heart to look at what it took for me to be able to forgive. The recipe called for PRAYER!
Well, the problem for me is that I don’t have time to PRAY ALL THE TIME. Doesn’t the word say, meditate on his word day and night???? Who has time for that in these days?
“But his delight is in the law of the Lord, And in his law he meditates day and night.” Psalm 1:2
Mhm, it sure does. So I felt the need to get “religious” and tell God what MY LIFE is about. You know, explaining to God why I can’t do what He expects of me because of where I am in life? I thought that this walk was going to be about holiness and thou shall do and thou shall nots…. God said clearly to me, “Time Management”.
So I start jumping in to learning about managing my time and rearranging my schedule and I need to buy a calendar for the wall and a calendar for my purse and an agenda book and … Lord I don’t have money for all of this right now. He said, Be Still.
He has spoken to me about jumping ahead of myself while learning how to forgive. He has mentioned patience and perseverance. Then He ties it into Time Management for me. He didn’t ask me to read the bible in a year. He didn’t ask me to memorize a verse. He asked me to WAKE UP AT 4 AM EVERYDAY SEVEN DAYS A WEEK TO PRAY! Lord I’ll read the book in a year! I PROMISE! (shaking my head at myself)
My only assignment at this time is to wake up at 4 am to start my day in prayer. (shaking my head again). I thought God knew me and loved me… (pouting) Then He reminds me,
“Do all things without complaining and disputing.” Philippians 2:14
So I started waking up at 4am as of Saturday 10/20/12, to pray. Let me share this with you:
Day 1 = Woke up at 4am, “Thank You Father for a brand new day, you didn’t say how long I had to pray. I love You in Jesus’s Name, Amen.” Back to sleep by 4:08am
Day 2 = Woke up at 4am, got OUT OF BED, walked over to the kitchen, took a piece of bread out and prayed bent over the sink with a full mouth, “Thank You Father for a brand new day and for teaching me about forgiveness and you still didn’t say how long I had to pray (walking back to my bed), I love You in Jesus’s Name, Amen.” Back to sleep by 4:20am
Day 3 = Woke up at 4am, stayed in bed while I prayed for myself and others. ((Not sure what time I went back to sleep)
Day 4 = Woke up at 4am, turned on K-Love on my cell phone, prayed and praised. I learned about the importance of scheduling my day, starting with prayer. I never went back to bed. I started my day, calmly and peacefully. With joy in my heart I had a GREAT day!
Day 5 = Woke up at 4am, “Thank you Father….” Back to sleep by 4am and something seconds
Day 6 = Woke up at 4am, opened up my bible, turned on K-Love, prayed and praised and dove into the word. The day is looking great today.
This is my only assignment at this time. He hasn’t told me how long to pray for. He hasn’t made me feel bad about the past 5 days. As a matter of fact I have laughed a lot about it. I mean just the fact that God wants ME to wake up at 4am was funny.
What have I learned so far? My days are longer. I have made time to pray and have a moment for just God and I. I am calmer in the morning now. We haven’t been “racing” out the house with me in an outrage of why we are running late. Rosie and I have sat down for breakfast together.
These 6 days have been about making a choice to pursue Him. The victory of this week has been that I HAVE woken up at 4 am. The two out of 6 days that I did it “right” in my mind, I spent ½ an hour with God. Those two days I had more self control during the day. I feel peaceful and loved. The moment in prayer with Him, I felt as though He had His arms wrapped around me.
I use to let other people tell me what I should change in myself. Either by reading books about God or by consulting with people of God. Today, GOD told me to work on waking up to spend some alone time with Him. Only He knows me inside and out!
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
You are Blessed and Highly Favored, in Jesus’ Name!
|Posted on October 24, 2012 at 3:45 PM||comments (0)|
My Heart Belongs To You Lord
For the past few weeks I have been trying to regain my composure and my life, one step at a time. I've been trying to figure out the things I've needed to change about myself. I've been wanting to be different. I know who God is. I shouldn't be living like this. Who would want to be like me? I imagine that when people hear that I am a Christian they wonder, "What kind of God do I serve".
Slowly I started to get back to being the "old" me! The girl who stepped away from her addiction, the internet, and began to interact with her family again. The woman who started to read books again. I started to go outside with my family and even cook again. I was making progress. I wasn't becoming perfect but I was back on that road to, "at least", trying... (Notice that I said the "old" me)
As I was reading a book by Dean Koontz, I couldn't help but notice things in the book that just kept tugging at my heart. The characters in the book were so much like the dreams I had for my life. I have never read a Dean Koontz book that made me think of the husband I have always wanted or the woman I wanted to be like. (If you don't understand, Dean Koontz writes scary books, not love stories). It was so abnormal for me, that I found myself praying to God about the book. Asking God about the characters and stuff like that. The end of the book shocked me! The monster in the story was the main character himself and he didn't realize it until I realized it!
I closed the book and just started seeing my life flash before my eyes. I am my own monster! Lord I need your help! I am getting in my own way! Suddenly it dawned on me that I was getting in His way too! I was stopping God from allowing me to live the life He promised me. As I sat on my bed I turned my head and looked at the title of that book:
"Your Heart Belongs To Me"!
PRAISE GOD! He used a Dean Koontz book to speak to me and I FINALLY heard Him, again!
I started praising God and thanking Him! I could feel His presence and I was excited! I had to write a blog! I think, I haven't written a blog since the myspace days. So I jumped on Facebook and started typing away. I just wanted to share with the world that I am alive in Him again! Without going into unimportant details, within moments of feeling this high, I was slapped hard. And I started to realize that my life was about to change for the BEST!
On October 15th, 2012, I made a choice to rededicate my life to God and to acknowledge that My Heart Belongs To Him!
What I am going to start sharing with people is my personal walk with God and how I started to learn that my heart belongs to Him. I am the type of girl who loves to tell people when I have found a good deal! The Good News is the best deal in the market. There is nothing in this world that will give you the results that God will give you. No matter what the issue is, God is the answer. He is the answer to Anger Management, Financial Prosperity/Getting Out of Debt, Finding the right Man/Woman, Staying out of Jail, Dealing with Being in Jail, Lying, Cheating, Stealing... Whatever mountain that is in your way, God has the BEST answer. And if you want to see that He has an answer for you too, I dare you to get on your knees and ask Him for yourself!
I dare you!