|Posted on October 24, 2012 at 3:45 PM|
My Heart Belongs To You Lord
For the past few weeks I have been trying to regain my composure and my life, one step at a time. I've been trying to figure out the things I've needed to change about myself. I've been wanting to be different. I know who God is. I shouldn't be living like this. Who would want to be like me? I imagine that when people hear that I am a Christian they wonder, "What kind of God do I serve".
Slowly I started to get back to being the "old" me! The girl who stepped away from her addiction, the internet, and began to interact with her family again. The woman who started to read books again. I started to go outside with my family and even cook again. I was making progress. I wasn't becoming perfect but I was back on that road to, "at least", trying... (Notice that I said the "old" me)
As I was reading a book by Dean Koontz, I couldn't help but notice things in the book that just kept tugging at my heart. The characters in the book were so much like the dreams I had for my life. I have never read a Dean Koontz book that made me think of the husband I have always wanted or the woman I wanted to be like. (If you don't understand, Dean Koontz writes scary books, not love stories). It was so abnormal for me, that I found myself praying to God about the book. Asking God about the characters and stuff like that. The end of the book shocked me! The monster in the story was the main character himself and he didn't realize it until I realized it!
I closed the book and just started seeing my life flash before my eyes. I am my own monster! Lord I need your help! I am getting in my own way! Suddenly it dawned on me that I was getting in His way too! I was stopping God from allowing me to live the life He promised me. As I sat on my bed I turned my head and looked at the title of that book:
"Your Heart Belongs To Me"!
PRAISE GOD! He used a Dean Koontz book to speak to me and I FINALLY heard Him, again!
I started praising God and thanking Him! I could feel His presence and I was excited! I had to write a blog! I think, I haven't written a blog since the myspace days. So I jumped on Facebook and started typing away. I just wanted to share with the world that I am alive in Him again! Without going into unimportant details, within moments of feeling this high, I was slapped hard. And I started to realize that my life was about to change for the BEST!
On October 15th, 2012, I made a choice to rededicate my life to God and to acknowledge that My Heart Belongs To Him!
What I am going to start sharing with people is my personal walk with God and how I started to learn that my heart belongs to Him. I am the type of girl who loves to tell people when I have found a good deal! The Good News is the best deal in the market. There is nothing in this world that will give you the results that God will give you. No matter what the issue is, God is the answer. He is the answer to Anger Management, Financial Prosperity/Getting Out of Debt, Finding the right Man/Woman, Staying out of Jail, Dealing with Being in Jail, Lying, Cheating, Stealing... Whatever mountain that is in your way, God has the BEST answer. And if you want to see that He has an answer for you too, I dare you to get on your knees and ask Him for yourself!
I dare you!