|Posted on November 5, 2012 at 12:05 AM|
Today I woke up at 7am. I was three hours late for my date with my Father. It didn't even bother me at first. I sat in my bed for a moment and thought, "Wow, I woke up early enough to take my time taking a shower and getting the kids up for the 9:30am service." (Which by the way, is a 9:00am service. Yes I was late to church!).
As I sat there, conviction started tugging at my heart. Today is Day #21 of My Heart Belongs To You Lord. A friend of mine once told me it actually takes 21 days to create a habit, not 30 days like I had thought. I should have been able to wake up this morning at 4am as if nothing. It should have been part of my daily routine by now. So I got on my knees and I prayed.
I prayed for God to forgive me for my disobedience. 21 days ago I went to God and told Him that I realized that my heart was no longer mine to mistreat and do harm to. I realized that my heart belonged to Him. 21 days ago I asked God to help me have a relationship with Him and to learn how to be more like Him so that I may live the life I deeply desire to live. He answered my prayers and simply told me to do two things. He told me to make time for Him and to Pray. Waking up at 4am was to teach me Time Management since I used the excuse that I had no time in the day. Prayer is to help me build a relationship with Him so that He could teach me, guide me, heal me, energize me, love on me, and so many other things that happen in my time of prayer. He answered my prayer and I ignored Him.
Two things that came to mind: 1. Don't you hate it when your friends ask you for advice and then when you give them some REALLY GOOD SOLID advice they give you that fake smile and a look that says, "Easy for you to say!" Later on they come back wishing they had followed your advice even though you don't follow your own advice! 2. If you have a child you may understand this one: A baby is getting in to trouble and you can see they know they are doing something wrong, so they try to be "cute". It melts your heart and you just have to laugh! You almost forget why you were correcting them.
My cuteness is over with and God is serious again. At first I laughed it off as to me waking up at 4am and going back to bed and so on and so forth. God isn't laughing. I can feel it in my heart that I have steered away from Him again. So this morning I prayed for God to give me His courage and His strength to get focused again and to be obedient to His word and His direction for my life! I asked Him for forgiveness and I believed in Him for His love that never fails me. I trust that He is always with me and will never forsake me. I just need to come back to His open arms! In the name of Jesus, I love my Father!
Today at church I was given some awesome scriptures:
"No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you or forsake you." Joshua 1:5b
"Be strong and courageous, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them. 7 Only be strong and very courageous, being careful to do according to all the law that Moses my servant commanded you. Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go" Joshua 1:6-7
"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil." Ephesians 6:10-11
"But he said, Yea rather, blessed are they that hear the word of God, and keep it." Luke 11:28
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path." Psalm 119:105
"This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success." Joshua 1:8
"Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee." Psalm 119:11 (His final answer)
Maybe you don't understand the significance of what I have shared today. The importance of what I have learned is within my prayers at 7am in the morning in my home on my knees before the Lord and the scriptures that my Pastor gave me during our 10:15 service. God knows what I'm going to do before I do it. He is ready with open arms for when I'm ready to turn around and come to Him. Yes, my Dad was laughing with me those first couple of days when I was pouting about having to wake up at 4am. He is a loving father and His love is never ending. However, the cuteness will only get me so far.
"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1 If you continue to hope for the answer and put to action what He tells you to do, you are showing true Faith!
Day #21 I'm past the cute stage!