|Posted on November 6, 2012 at 6:30 AM|
"The fear (respect) of the Lord is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate." Proverbs 8:13
At first I didn't see how this fell under pride, but what is pride? The type of pride I am speaking of is a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc. (dictionary.com). This type of pride takes our focus off of God and onto ourselves. This type of pride had me focused on me and not on Him. And I carried a burden which I was unwilling to let go of because I thought, "If I forgive myself, the person I have wronged will not think I was genuine. If people see me acting like I did nothing wrong... What would people think of me?"
This is at a time that I am learning that MY HEART BELONGS TO HIM! To God. Not to ANYONE ELSE! God said, "Forgive yourself!" And I was blatantly saying, "No Dad, I can't! What will THEY think?"
When I realized that I was focused on me, I gave in and asked God to forgive me for my disobedience and I praised HIm for His forgiveness and I allowed God to wrap His arms around me as I learned how to let go and let God.... When I forgave myself, I took my eyes off of others and put them on GOD!
"Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you." Proverbs 4:25
The only way to forgive yourself is to take your eyes off of you and put them on Him. It will allow you to MOVE FORWARD!
Be Blessed, Stay Blessed and Be a Blessing!